that sounds good overall.

lol, i played battleship yesterday. for some reason, i had strong desire to do.

Hey, this is "gothchick2190". I got a new diary. Please add me back. (:
~Amber

Aww, happy late birthday. And happy holidays. Yeah, it was a little late. . . sorry! (:

I share your enthusiasm with wanting to be a vet!  Except...well lately I have thought about majoring in psychology.  I guess we'll see what happens.

Sorry about your brother ;(

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i want to see it again too! it was awesome!!

fortunately, there were no screaming girls when i saw it :)

21 days away won't exactly spark your excitement level, I suppose. Maybe as it get's closer, you'll feel more excited. Maybe as you start planning for it, you'll be more excited. Maybe if you thought about it more and what presents you'll get, you'll be more excited. Who knows?

I love December too. Plus the snow days and a lot of days off from school, if you have it. I love chocolate cake. Actually, I love cake period. I like to bake stuff too. My Mom just showed me how to make scrambled eggs and bacon today, because I didn't know. I made my own breakfast. It'll probably be useful to me someday anyway.

I just moved the last Summer too. A dog is a good way to be less lonesome if you do get so. It sounds like you have a good house. What dog do you want to have? And what about names? Good luck in your new house.

J

omg luv that pic

he is so delicious!!

eep i wanna see the movie!!

i think that was the best movie iv ever seen!

i think the actors did the best they could,but rob pattinson just wasnt perfect enough to be edward.:)

also,victoria cries.vampires cant cry lol.

and edward doesnt have a reflextion,which in the books he does.

&& charlie has more of an overprotective attitude than he has in the books,but it makes it funny lol.

&& laurent is black,which wether u were black or white or mexican or any kind of complection as a human,u auotomatically turn super pale as a vampire,but laurent is still a dark color as a vamp.

and in one scene,bella kisses edward IN HER UNDIES.she was always fully clothed with him untill breaking dawn.

so those are a few probs that bugged me in the movie.lol

but other than that,i think they did a pretty good job.

i am excited too!!

i saw a boy reading it today on the bus, and it made me chuckle.

All the 12:00 showings are sold out here

I love packed movie theaters though! I really hope she publishes Midnight Sun too! I'm dying.

wow..till monday? holy shiz nit!

I'm not going to see it for a while either (not sure when yet). BE happy you're not going to see it midnight tonight, cause...those girls will be screaming. I kinda opted out of going for that reason,.....i want to scream on the inside, but i reaaaally want to enjoy the movie w/o screaming fan girls (although i think of myself as a 'conservative' fangirl [ha!]!

i know!i cant wait!!im goin to see it tomorrow!!eep!

*girlish cheerleader squeal*+
*faints dramatically while drooling over edward cullen*=

obsessed!

-kaylee

ROFL!!! hahahaha
"I would walk 30 hours in the snow barefoot with nothing on but a hat and
having a salesmen trying to sell me his new high powered dildo" lmfao XD
You have no idea how hard I laughed at that haha
I cant wait for the twilight movie either, it's taking forever to come out D=
I love twilight so much =D
and new moon, and eclipse.. I was kinda disappointed in Breaking Dawn
though, were you? =|
And woah, It's raining here right now lol
rain rules =P 

Lol!
I'm really enjoying your diary!
It's quite cool if you don't mind me saying =P

Twilight did that to me too..
The movie doesn't come out til Boxing Day here =[ *Cries*
Lol
Sorry for being such a randomer =]

Byee*

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Amy
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wow, that's such great news! i am very happy to hear this. thanks for sharing :)

you will still have those really down times, but the fact that you have come to this realization means you're going to win, and you are going to conquer the down times in life. great news :)

omg.

i dont know what to say!!!!
i'm kinda of going thro the same thing except noone died.
a few yrs ago my uncle died. and  then a few months after that i lost my dog which was even harder b/c she was my best friend.

just try and breathe slowly and lay down. try and get ur friends to help u thru this stage.
i dont know if this helps. but i hope all goes well cya emily

Remember the good days, don't dwell on the death.  I know its hard but remember his smile, his laugh, his memories.

Hang in there, one day there will be more happy days then sad.  FInd someone you can talk to, someone whop knows the pain.  Maybe there is a support group near you.  Usually hospitals have meetings for people are dealing with a loss. 

I honestly think that if he was your Everyting it's okay to still feel how you feel. Maybe you should talk to someone bout it tho. That can help. I kno if my sister or cousin (who is just bout my sister) died I would lose it. I would go off the end of all life an prolly do some stupid shit.

But anyways... I am sorry for your loss, even tho is in the past. An I hope you get threw this. *Love* *Hugs* ~Amber

i'm really sorry to hear about your brother :(

love.venus

it definitely felt like 20 hours...

yeah, don't call "him" just wait for him to call you

i am glad you didn't flip out after reading that; it's intense.

[InMyHead19]

i loved the host! it was different, but i loved it.

sorry, i've been away so long. i thought about you a lot specifically wondering how you were holding up.

your welcome. i like to help people when i can. i hope i helped a little. but if you ever need to talk to someone i am here for you. best of luck.

Am gonna say first that I don't want you to take anything I say wrong. Okay??? But I think that the reason why you are "stuck in time" is because you have not yet let yourself accept your brothers death. And that is totally normal. You can not let what people are doing or saying effect the way you feel about things. You just have to find a way to accept the fact that he is gone. And altho he is gone does not mean that he has left you! He will forever be in you heart! And from what I have read I kno for a fact that you in your heart will NEVER forget him. He was and IS too important to you. And just because everyone else is moving on does not mean that you have to jump on it. It just means that you are having a harder time with it. (not meaning that they care less than you) It's just that everyone deals with everything differently that other people. And you just happen to take more of the shock of his death. But I wish you all the luck in the world. Is hard to lose someone, specially someone sooo close to you. But I do hope you find a way to get threw this hard time. And remember if he is in your heart he is there with you! ~LOVE~ ~Best Wishes~ ~Amber~

Im so sorry to hear about your loss. I lost someone I really loved 4 years ago and it was so difficult to get over him. I know how it feels like to replay that picture everytime despite you not wanting or hating to do it, the feeling of frustration, helplessness, emptiness....

It helps to speak out about it to someone really close to you, may be that will make you feel better. You dont have to rush yourself to get over his death...if theres' no one u can talk to, u can always come here n talk about him...I know you are strong, and your brother knows that too...Im proud that you are true to your feelings even at this point of time...Please continue to write about him or your feelings for that matter, am here if you need anything..gud luck.

you could shoot down all the stars in this world and they will never bring him back hun its sad but the truth if you cant move on for yourself than move on for him becuse he your brother your angel would not want you to be stuck in this hell hole in order for him to move on hun you need to let him go its hard i know but your going to hold him back from moveing on becuse he'd be sceard of leaveing you and i knoe your scerd of letting him go becuse your worst fear would be true that he has moved on and has gone i felt that way for years afta my grandad died we was real close so close it made a big gap between my dad and me afta he died becuse i was sceard that every guy i got close to would die and leave me here and i miss him so much but the gab ive felt between me and my hole family for nearly 12 years is  so big and painful i dont want you to be leaft in the past like i was and he was sweety you got to move on you need to let go cry ,scream,shout out ur lungs till it hurts ...but dont hold back in the past it will onley hurt you in the latter in life there a good old saying theres a ression they dant make it to your latter years but it will make your 10xs as strong than when they first gone i promise you letting him goo and moveing on is not letting him down he still now you care becuse he can feel it even if you dont notice hes with you everywear the air your blood your home everywear darling

His death hit me so hard!

Oh I didn't realize that was put on yet! I'm gonna go read it now! lol

Zoey.

OMG I am OBSESSED with it! I just finished breaking dawn 2 days ago...OMG. And yeah Jacob always annoyed me and I never blamed Bella for what she was doing but after breaking dawn I veiw Jacob much differently! =]

I really hope they didn't mess the movie up, but then again no matter what they do, the book will ALWAYS be better, just like all the harry potters...

And there were several times in twilight when I was wondering what was going on in edwards head, and I'm def. going to read midnight sun, but I feel like after finished the entire series it'll be weird going back to book 1...

but knowing stephanie meyer she wont dissapoint... =]

and it's 4 months for the movie!! =]

Zoey.

OMG ! Isn't it great?

The Twilight saga just got to Brazil, so I bought the first one on sunday, and i'm almost finished with that cause I JUST CAN'T STOP READING IT !

:)

definitely buy New Moon. You might as well get Eclipse while you're at it since Breaking Dawn comes out in three days!!!

you probably should buy lots of tissues. cleaning out his room is probably going to be just as hard as going to the funeral etc. i'm sry again :(

The History About Me

Part 1- ME

PART 2- THE FAMILY

PART 3- THE FRIENDS

PART 4- YOUR PERSONALITY

PART 5- APPEARANCE

Are you comfortable with the way you look?
I guess so

Describe your hair?
Short... I want it long!

How do you dress?
In whatever I want

Were you a strange child?
Weird, strange, whatever word you wanna use, HELL YEAH, I STILL AM!

What is your ambition?
To be happy and loved

Are you scared of growing old alone?
YES
Do you want to get married?
Yes please

PART 8- THE OUTDOORS

PART 9- FOOD

Are you a vegetarian?
No

What is your favorite food?
Probably Macaroni and Cheese YUM
What food makes you want to gag?
Icky health sh*t

What is your favorite dessert?
Apple Pie :P
Favorite restaurant(s)?
Uh, i'm not sure

PART 10- RELATIONSHIPS AND LOVE

Are you single or taken?
Single

If taken who is the lucky guy/girl?
Going for one (JP)

Do you think love is the best feeling in the world?
It is!

Do you believe in love at first sight?
At times

Nice Survey! I liked it.

~Alaina~

im reposting this in a comment! hope you don't mind. =D

Part 1- ME

Were you a planned baby?
no.

Were you the first?
last.

Who was present at your birth?
um, i actually have nooo idea.

Were your parents married when you were born?
yes.

PART 2- THE FAMILY

Parents married or divorced?
technically married?

An only child?
nope!

If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest?
youngest.

Which parent do you get along with best?
none.

Do you have step-parents?
nah.

PART 3- THE FRIENDS

Do you have more than one best friend?
mhm.

What do you like to do when you are together?
we love being random.
having paper wars at work.
laughing during surveys at work.
its fun.

Do you share the same interest?
to some degree.

Which friends can you tell everything to?
my laine boy. gay guy bestie. LOVE HIM!

PART 4- YOUR PERSONALITY

Do you have low self esteem?
not really.

Do you get depressed about things easily?
depends.

Do you consider yourself an extrovert or an introvert?
both.

Are you happy?
right now? im indifferent.

Do you live life to the fullest?
i try to.

PART 5- APPEARANCE

Are you comfortable with the way you look?
i am. actually. i completely love myself even if i am curvy =D

Describe your hair?
red. and blonde.
natural!

How do you dress?
how i want to!

Were you a strange child?
pretty much lol.

What is your ambition?
to find something to do with my life!

Are you scared of growing old alone?
sorta. im more afraid of growing old in general! they're so sad...but hey, im looking forward to senior citizen discounts and blaming everything on a "senior moment"

Do you want to get married?
yep. and have babies! hehe.

PART 8- THE OUTDOORS

Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?
depends on the weather.

Right season?
fall.

Do you like walking in the rain?
LOVE IT! everytime it rains, i go stand out there and get SOAKED.

PART 9- FOOD

Are you a vegetarian?
no, but i tried it. i only eat meat a couple times a week, its a compromise.

What is your favorite food?
oatmeal.

What food makes you want to gag?
fish.
poor fishies.

What is your favorite dessert?
cheesecake.

Favorite restaurant(s)?
eh, pizza hut!

PART 10- RELATIONSHIPS AND LOVE

Are you single or taken?
single.

If taken who is the lucky guy/girl?
he was lucky, but he threw me away! that ass. gurrrr.

Do you think love is the best feeling in the world?
it can be. its lovely when its giddy.

Do you believe in love at first sight?
its lust at first sight. in order to love someone, you have to know them...and if you dont know them then you cant love them. thats my opinion lol. =D

Lol I'm glad you liked it! :) I try to encourage as many people as I can into reading her books, because they just don't understand how completly incredible they are. You kinda have to read them to know that, but you know that now :) I'm so happy you read them, and yes the next is New Moon, then Eclipse, and finnaly Breaking Dawn, which I can't wait for!!!!! Stephenie Meyer has a website, and I don't know if I told you this, but its www.stepheniemeyer.com and it will kinda explain everything about other books shes writting that I can't wait for! I'm so happy you read Twilight!!!!! I <3 Edward, and though he won't love anyone but Bella, and he isn't really.... ok ya i just can't think of that, becasue in my mind, Edward will always be real, but i tottaly believe in vampires, and i am not ashamed of it!  ( I know i'm probably scaring you with how obsessed I am, but i am actual really upset right now :( theres gonna be a party at the Borders near where I live for the release of Breaking Dawn, and you can get your copy at midnight the day it comes out, but of course I'm gonna be away then, and I'm gonna have to wait for 2 whole weeks after the book comes out before I can read it. I might very well die, so don't be suprised if i don't talk to you for a while. I will either be freaking out the whole 2 weeks, or sitting around doing nothing and making people think I'm mental becasue I will refuse to speak. Who knows, but it is not going to be pretty, so if you happen to read the whole series, including Breaking Dawn, before I do, please don't rub it in :) Glad you read the book though! And glad you liked it! Stephenie Meyer can never have to many Fanpires!)

<3 hopesandfishes <3

The Guardian was really good. I say my favs. are the notebook, message in a bottle, and a walk to remember. but then i would say the guardian is right after those. of course, i read them before they were movies so now when i mention them to people i feel cheesy cuz they're cheesy romance movies lol. the books are just so good though if you read them before the movies!

first of all, congratulations on not eating meat! my best friend is vegan. it's such an admirable thing to do.

second, i have read all of nicholas sparks' books, and i love them...they're wicked sad.

third, congrats on quitting smoking as well!

I feel so sorry for your dog. I hope he finds a good home.It's not fair and I am sure he loves and will miss you.

Pets are supposed to be a life time commitment, keep it in mind when you get your next dog, please. They are living emotional creatures.

i'm so sorry about your brother :(

this made me cry. i can't imagine the pain you're going through. i'm so so sorry. keep writing to him. you wont' forget him.

I thought I was the only loser who posted about the dark knight saying how amazing it was!! HAHA I thought it was the best movie EVERRR!!!! And heath Ledger was AMAZING, killed Jack's performance...

The Joker was soooo scary, but at the same time...hilarious...it was sick comedy..haha

"I'm going to show you a magic trick.." haha

My favorite part was that pencil part and when he's walking, or actually half skipping out of the hospital with a wig on and that nurse outfit..hahaha!!!

I went to the midnight showing the first day it came out. We wanted to see it in IMAX but it was sold out...and we tried getting tickets 4 days before..how crazy!!

But I'm going to see it again hopefully in IMAX with my family.

"Why so serious?"

Zoey.

yeah. i wrote it for my ex fling.

the ass just stopped talking to me. never told me anything.

and my gay guy bestie called him pretending to be a chick named tiffany...and he was like yeah! text me!

it was stupid.

its hard to realize that i was way too good for him.

i loved him.

anyyway.

lol, i feel special. telling you my whole life story. =/ lol.

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